Chaos and Crooked seams

I haven't blogged in a while and thought today would be a great day to do it. I started working on my Civil War block of the month in earnest today. I started the piecing last week and started working on the borders of the first block today and realized that my flying geese were out of whack. Luckily for me I have more than enough fabric to redo them and still have enough fabric for the other blocks that require the remnants from this month's block.
   I've also been working on my cross stitching. I have a bit of deadline with the Pirate one. As I get closer to finishing it, I'm finding myself getting tired of it and ready to go to something else. I'm hoping to have it done by Friday so I can drop it off to the frame shop. I've been taking the Joan Elliot Fairy to work and working on it at lunch. I have maybe 20 or so stitches in it already and it looks like drops of red paint on the fabric.
   In other news, I bought this shiny firefly fabric from Jo Ann's a few weeks ago and I've been trying to figure out what to do with. A friend of mine gave me a book with some old patterns in it and one of them is a LeMoyne star pattern that I'd really like to try with dark jewel tones. I'm going to one of the quilt shops here tomorrow to ask some advice on what would look good before I embark on that journey. The good news is if I need to order the fat quarters from work, I can. The only fly in the ointment is I'll have way more fabric than I'll need. So it's a serious Catch-22.
   Anyway, that's everything that's new in my world. Thanks for listening.

PS If anyone has any suggestions for flying geese, I'd totally appreciate it.

Petal Pillow

So this is my very first photo post. This is the petal pillow courtesy of the tutorial from Allison at Cluck Cluck Sew. I'm so excited to be experimenting. Tonight I am finishing up A Friend is like a Bra by Sue Hillis. Have a busy week ahead with one other cross stitch and starting a Block of the Month program from Keepsake Quilting. Thank you all for listening.

Feeling Lonely and scared

Tonight I feel lonelier than I've ever felt. I've been through hell and back and still can't bring myself to feel happy again. The only happy news I have from the home front is I've thrown myself into my crafting. The pillow from the tutorial is almost done and both cross stitches are just about done. If I can shovel through the three of them then possibly I can move to something else.
    I have all this pent up frustration and anxiety inside me and trying to keep going on a daily basis is hard. I have no clue if anyone is listening but it feels good just to write. I figured out why I love playing with the fabric and sewing. It feels like I'm trying to put the pieces of me back together. Haven't felt the same since I lost my dad last year and as it gets closer to the anniversary, it keeps getting harder. I just wanted to write and pour out some of the things inside me. Maybe tomorrow will be brighter.